People with adhd or people who understand adhd?

people with adhd or people who understand adhd gotta question for ya. Hello there how are ya OK now lets start from the beginning shall we alright let's start from when I was a lad i remember how I would always get in trouble for daydreaming, not listening, and being lazy. Well that's what the teachers would tell my parents and I would get in trouble for it they basically told My parents is that I didn't care. but deep down I knew better I did not daydream on purpose and that I actually did care. I always had a hard time focusing, and concentrating and remembering things I have learned. which for the teachers were signs of me not caring but some teachers loved me and told me I had potential I'm just not living up to it (sad violin music plays in the background) thanks teach. anyhoes I remember I was given a test around in the 5 grade its was exactly like the wais test but I had the patterns the pics the blocks the arithmetic everything only difference was I had a reading part and I had a part where they would read out a sentence and I would match the sentence with the picture. after taking that test I remember being told that I had to go to another teacher and I'm like ok. I remember how the f making stopped I remember getting c's and I was so happy I felt smart for a change. blah blah blah moving on to middle school I remember getting easier test then the others extra time On ignments and some of the teachers would give me answers to the test. I loved the teachers now that's how to teach yes that's what ya call a good teacher. I remember in high school I would have very easy cles at a slow pace and still given special treatment. looking back I think they put people in cles that tested poorly on that test in special classes so special were the teachers gave the class answers before they took the test oh i adored the teachers it was beautiful. I did however have the classes were the teachers were hard and were I had to study . I cant learn anything I am not interested in I found myself making 40s and 50s on test that I didn't study for and for the test I did study for I made 20s and 30s um yeah I told myself to never study for another test again so I had to cheat. whenever I go to study my mind leaves me and I start to daydream sometimes I don't even know I do it all I know is that I am out of it. I could never learn from teachers due to my short attention span and my lack of focusing and remembering. this is where my depression began I felt dumb and inferior to others around me and was treated dumb then my anxiety happened. I became suicidal B/c of how I could n't learn on my own I had to cheat or be given the answers I can remember small stuff not but a lot of stuff. not only that I'm disorganized I was the one with the messy desk I remember being the one with the messy cubby hole. I always missEd place things like my hw, my keys, my clothes shoes, everything. I have like four piles of stuff in my room now I believe I have a room mate B/c I can hear snoring at night. I have always had a disorganized problem ever since I was little. I love to daydream its my fave thing to do I say I daydream like 85 percent of the day I'd rather stay at home and daydream then go shopping or to the movies or anything else. I love it that's what keeps me entertained strange I know but true. my personality is that I'm shy, extremely sensitive , nice , funny, I've been told my imagination is perfect, I start off strong on writing but have trouble with conclusion. the bad side to me is I'm impatient, I don't have a tolerance level , I'm very quick tempered ,I get irritated easily , I hate being around people I feel nervous and paranoid. and I am extremely stubborn. after mentioning having 4 suicide attempts to the doctors B/c I was having a bad experience with my add med the doctors sent Me to the crazy house. before all this I was diagnosed with add and was treated for it and no longer xperience depression or anxiety . I was happy its like he gave mIothe answer I've been looking for. so I go to the crazy place and try to explain everything that happened to me and what helped these freaks of nature did not listen too me and cut me off saying yeah its not add its anxiety and depression. I got mad how on earth are they going to not only not listen to me but tell me how I feel what I feel and what I need to feel i took everything I had to not bash there skulls in with my chair. how dare you the thing about doctors is they think B/c they went to school and study they are psychic and tell me what I feel how I feel and how long I have felt it I'm looking at them like they came fresh off the funny farm. there will be snow day in the desert before I let anybody think for me. I believe I have add and I want answers as to why I think the way I think but the doctor told me is that I'm just after medication