Wednesday, June 22, 2011

I just need to know that two people can end up together in the end (long sorry)?

I fell in love about a year ago and we were together for 8 months. Our relationship was strange to begin with. One month into the relationship I knew I was in love with him and I knew it wasn't lust because all we at that point was make out. And then two months into the relationship his dad ped away. I didn't know his dad but I still cried but for the pain I saw him go threw. It was then I knew I was with my true love because I knew if there was anything I could do to take his pain away I would do it without thinking. After his dad ped away I began spending lots of time with his family going to dinners and movies and just hanging out at there houses. I even went with his mom on an all day car ride to pick him up from a baseball camp about 12 hours away we were together about 5 and a half months at that point. Her family lives up there and I spent two days down there with them before we came with boyfriend in hand ha. Him and I slept in different rooms and still didn't have so I KNOW it wasn't lust. School started a week after we came home and it was all good we made love for the first time, we gave each other our virginity's and I don't regret it because I know it was making love and not just . Before we dated I watched his friends make fun of him because he told them he wouldn't ever make love unless it was ACTUALLY making love. until he found out he was moving with his mom up to her family 12 hours away. A 12 hour space between a young couple in love is a lot to put on a relationship that is also being tested by death. We cried and cried, we didn't know what to do we talked about us getting jobs and spending all of our money on plain tickets to see each other every months. But when He couldn't find a job where he was moving and I couldn't find a job here it was out of the question. My parents told me they wouldn't let me drive down by my self and his mom wouldn't let him drive down by his self. They wouldn't drive us every month or every other month. His mom and my parents both agreed we could see each other fall break christmas and 2 times during the summer. That made things difficult. We were willing to do the long distance when we knew we could see each other every month but 4 times out of the year wasn't fair. He cried and I said this isn't fair he explained it like feeling like we were being pulled apart like two peaces of paper glued together peaces of the paper will always be on the other. He then told me he wanted me to experience my last year of high school with my friends and be able to date and not be tied down to someone who isn't ever there. He told me if he didn't care about me he would go threw with long distance which would hurt me more then breaking up in the long run. He told me he feels deep in his gut that we will end up together one way or another but that he wants me to live life and not be taken down by a broken person. After that I kind of ignored him until about two weeks before he moved in April when he called me and something inside me just made me pick up for the first time sense we split! We hung out and kissed good by and now we talk practically every day. And we talk about seeing ether when he comes down sometime this summer to see his Grandparents. But I just can't help but feeling this feeling deep in my gut that him and I will end up eventually like as in marry and have a family and he still tells me the same sometimes. So do you think it is possible that to people who once fell completely and madly in love but were torn apart could end up together in the end?

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